J. always said that women have all the control in relationships. Especially in bed, unless they decide to let the guy have control. I couldn't argue with him much because I definitely had control in our relationship, and even though I like to be dominated in bed, if I didn't, it's not like he would have done any of that.
But now I know that he's wrong. He didn't have control because he never took it. But that's what T. did the other day. I hadn't seen him for four days, so I went over on Saturday night to watch a movie (no, we really did), with every intention of fucking afterward. The movie turned out to be pretty lame, so in the middle of it I got on top with him and tried to start making out. He didn't seem that interested so I asked what was up and he replied that he had intended on making me wait longer. Thinking he meant just until after the movie, I resumed my position on the couch and waited (im)patiently until the movie finished.
Expecting to finally get fucked I went to start kissing him again and he informed me that he wasn't going to have sex with me that night. I was flabbergasted. Guys don't say no to ME! I say no to THEM! And for the record, I only say no if I don't want them at all, not to toy with them. Anyway, he told me I would have to wait until Thursday, as in two days from now, before we had sex again. I didn't know what to do with myself. I tried to seduce him. Tried begging. Nothing worked. So I left his house angry. So angry. When I got home I was really upset because I didn't know how to deal with feel so out of control. What really made me upset, too, was that when I got home I noticed that I had gotten really aroused even though he didn't do anything. So I masturbated to help release a little bit of the tension, but I was still upset about the switch of power. It infuriated me that he could just say no to me so easily.
But then, the next day, once I'd had time to think about it, I realized that it only made me want him more. And not sexually. Obviously I will want him more sexually because it's being withheld from me. That's why he's playing the game. However, I found myself being more intrigued with him, as a person, just because he's the first guy that's ever been able to do this to me. I think if any other guy had tried it, it wouldn't have worked because I'd have known they would give in. But he didn't. And even though the lack of control really did make me frustrated as all get out, it was hot at the same time. Control out of bed. Something I guess I'll have to get used to with him.
By the way, I'm not having to wait until Thursday. His plans changed and now I will experience some crazy awesome sex in, oh, a couple hours. Thank God. I don't know how I would have been able to wait nine days.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
New Guy
Hey all. So I talked in my last post about how I wanted to be single for a bit...but I have found a new guy to fool around with for the moment. We started hanging out shortly after J. and I broke up and we just clicked pretty well. We're not officially in a relationship or anything, but he is definitely doing a good job of fulfilling my needs during this single girl stage. ;)
I said in one of my first posts how much I appreciated J.'s skills in bed because I knew they are kind of hard to find. Well, I've found those mad skills in T. as well. My goodness, he's good! Despite the fact that he didn't even know everything I liked, our first time was great. I was very impressed. And one thing I love about him is that he has no problem doing lots of foreplay. We'll make out for a good 15-20 minutes, and then he'll pleasure me orally or manually, get me off a couple times, and then we'll have sex. Which lasts at least 20 minutes. It's fantastic. The reason I'm talking about this, other than it being a wonderful new development in my sex life, is to once again reiterate to all those women out there who aren't being fulfilled that you do deserve it. That it is possible to find a man who will meet all your needs. I've found two now. Make sure none of you are settling for duds.
Oh, I almost forgot about the great new thing I figured out to do during sex! Have it in front of a mirror, people. I'm sure you've heard this before, and maybe even some of you have tried it. If you haven't, I'm serious, do it. It's fucking hot. T. has a full mirror on his closet doors that are right at bed height and it is SO hot being able to watch everything. It even helps with things like feeling lonely during positions like reverse cowgirl. 'Til next time, keep having great sex, everyone. I know I will!
I said in one of my first posts how much I appreciated J.'s skills in bed because I knew they are kind of hard to find. Well, I've found those mad skills in T. as well. My goodness, he's good! Despite the fact that he didn't even know everything I liked, our first time was great. I was very impressed. And one thing I love about him is that he has no problem doing lots of foreplay. We'll make out for a good 15-20 minutes, and then he'll pleasure me orally or manually, get me off a couple times, and then we'll have sex. Which lasts at least 20 minutes. It's fantastic. The reason I'm talking about this, other than it being a wonderful new development in my sex life, is to once again reiterate to all those women out there who aren't being fulfilled that you do deserve it. That it is possible to find a man who will meet all your needs. I've found two now. Make sure none of you are settling for duds.
Oh, I almost forgot about the great new thing I figured out to do during sex! Have it in front of a mirror, people. I'm sure you've heard this before, and maybe even some of you have tried it. If you haven't, I'm serious, do it. It's fucking hot. T. has a full mirror on his closet doors that are right at bed height and it is SO hot being able to watch everything. It even helps with things like feeling lonely during positions like reverse cowgirl. 'Til next time, keep having great sex, everyone. I know I will!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Ch-ch-changes
Wow, I haven't been keeping up on this blog as much as I should. I guess it's because I haven't had much to say, but something has changed recently in my life. J. and I are taking a break. I've decided that for right now I just want to be a single girl. I'm young and independent and ever since I started dating (at 17), I've been in a relationship, so for now I just want to enjoy the single life. That may or may not include seeing other guys, but if it does it won't be anything serious. Does that seem weird to you all? Of the people I've talked to some get it and some don't.
So anyway, it's been about a week now since I've had sex. That's the longest I've gone without it in a long time now. I guess maybe some people out there are thinking I'm pretty spoiled, and you're right, I am. It will be interesting to see how long I can go. Last night I was really craving it but was determined not to turn to J. for it. I am stronger than that! What I did was I actually tried masturbating. Haven't done that in a while. I was able to orgasm, but just once and it's like, a third of the intensity of the orgasms that I have with J. So that's disappointing. I do need something to get me through this time though...so I'm thinking that I may actually take a second look at that book that I reviewed and see if I can glean some tips from it that will help make solo sex more enjoyable for me. I'll let you know how it goes. :)
By the way, I know I've mentioned my love of erotica on here before, but I wanted to share one of my favorite sites if any other readers enjoy it as well. The site is called Jonathan Philips Erotica and this guy is good. I originally found him on Lusty Library, but he made this site where he's posted all his stories and it's really great. Check it out for some highly enticing reading.
So anyway, it's been about a week now since I've had sex. That's the longest I've gone without it in a long time now. I guess maybe some people out there are thinking I'm pretty spoiled, and you're right, I am. It will be interesting to see how long I can go. Last night I was really craving it but was determined not to turn to J. for it. I am stronger than that! What I did was I actually tried masturbating. Haven't done that in a while. I was able to orgasm, but just once and it's like, a third of the intensity of the orgasms that I have with J. So that's disappointing. I do need something to get me through this time though...so I'm thinking that I may actually take a second look at that book that I reviewed and see if I can glean some tips from it that will help make solo sex more enjoyable for me. I'll let you know how it goes. :)
By the way, I know I've mentioned my love of erotica on here before, but I wanted to share one of my favorite sites if any other readers enjoy it as well. The site is called Jonathan Philips Erotica and this guy is good. I originally found him on Lusty Library, but he made this site where he's posted all his stories and it's really great. Check it out for some highly enticing reading.
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