Drive Me Crazy

J. always said that women have all the control in relationships.  Especially in bed, unless they decide to let the guy have control.  I couldn't argue with him much because I definitely had control in our relationship, and even though I like to be dominated in bed, if I didn't, it's not like he would have done any of that.

But now I know that he's wrong.  He didn't have control because he never took it.  But that's what T. did the other day.  I hadn't seen him for four days, so I went over on Saturday night to watch a movie (no, we really did), with every intention of fucking afterward.  The movie turned out to be pretty lame, so in the middle of it I got on top with him and tried to start making out.  He didn't seem that interested so I asked what was up and he replied that he had intended on making me wait longer.  Thinking he meant just until after the movie, I resumed my position on the couch and waited (im)patiently until the movie finished. 

Expecting to finally get fucked I went to start kissing him again and he informed me that he wasn't going to have sex with me that night.  I was flabbergasted.  Guys don't say no to ME!  I say no to THEM!  And for the record, I only say no if I don't want them at all, not to toy with them.  Anyway, he told me I would have to wait until Thursday, as in two days from now, before we had sex again.  I didn't know what to do with myself.  I tried to seduce him.  Tried begging.  Nothing worked.  So I left his house angry.  So angry.  When I got home I was really upset because I didn't know how to deal with feel so out of control.  What really made me upset, too, was that when I got home I noticed that I had gotten really aroused even though he didn't do anything.  So I masturbated to help release a little bit of the tension, but I was still upset about the switch of power. It infuriated me that he could just say no to me so easily.

But then, the next day, once I'd had time to think about it, I realized that it only made me want him more.  And not sexually.  Obviously I will want him more sexually because it's being withheld from me.  That's why he's playing the game.  However, I found myself being more intrigued with him, as a person, just because he's the first guy that's ever been able to do this to me.  I think if any other guy had tried it, it wouldn't have worked because I'd have known they would give in.  But he didn't.  And even though the lack of control really did make me frustrated as all get out, it was hot at the same time.  Control out of bed.  Something I guess I'll have to get used to with him. 

By the way, I'm not having to wait until Thursday.  His plans changed and now I will experience some crazy awesome sex in, oh, a couple hours.  Thank God.  I don't know how I would have been able to wait nine days.